So much to say that goes unspoken

sometimes i wonder why is it so hard at times. everyone one have parents and some are like me single parent with just a mum. But sadly she is not like other mums my sis turn bad because of her if she continuing doin this to me i might end up worst then my sis come on mum wake we are all growing up we are no longer your small kids. for once try understanding something which u never did from the start. all this not only hurting u but it does hurt deep down inside u know when people out there don't have to suffer so much at home. most people would be happy to come back home but for me home will be the last place i would rather be cause i just can't stand another day fighting with u. what were u saying in the morning because of me dad passed away isn't it so what can i do did i ask u to give birth to me in the first place no it was your wish now stop blaming me for some indian astrology things yah. u said i murdered a man which i don't even remember talkin to or i don't even know hw he looks only seen him in pictures if dad was a life would all this happen? but anyway i have no idea how alife would be with a dad cause never grown up with one. for god christ sake stop blaming me for your lost. i wanted to work to support myself told u about a week already but today when i am getting ready to go to work u started saying i can't leave the house blur blur n u even lock the gate come on how long can u stop me!! i seriously don't understand even tho i try my best to.. first all this happen to my elder sis now is happening to me when u r old and rotting at home no one is gonna bother that's when u gonna realise your mistakes? like i said before i am no longer a kid i am growing up n let me grow up stop controling me!!! all this just makes me hate u more each day